I remember when I got my first passport.. I remember the day I stepped on the plane…

I remember the moment my life began in a foreign land I now call home… the weather was brutal but a ‘good welcome’… the people looked different, smelt different, and ate differently… Yes, many nationalities had come for greener pastures here and so it became a rainbow of sorts…

My mental wiring was challenged ever so frequently… the truths from my former life seemed to have many loopholes… Was it because we were brought up to never question them? Just to accept them as ‘culture’… the way ‘we are’? I was confused… more conflicted because I didn’t want to lose my identity but also wanted to embrace this new ‘light’. For there is so much freedom here… the choice to decide what to believe and who makes sense to “ME”… Now I could comprehend the rationale behind so many things and not just accept them as truths. I could ask questions and if it didn’t resonate with me, it got dropped! I wasn’t forced to accept anything… this was liberating…

I remember when I went to refresh after a very long time away… back to the place my birth cries were first heard… and realised how vastly I had evolved mentally, spiritually and most importantly, emotionally. I couldn’t fit in anymore. To do that I would have to unlearn my truths and embrace those of the land forced on me many years prior…

It’s their way of life… it’s how it’s always worked for them… and still does. To function is to adapt, and be silent. I finally accepted it’s ‘them’ now… no longer ‘us’…

I love you my country… but liberty beckons.

I am free now… emancipated from mental slavery.

 

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A & E…

Don’t panic don’t panic, lol.. I’m fine, no cause for alarm…

Just had a flashback to my last experience at A & E. Between calling out your name wrong at the reception (sometimes I don’t even know it’s me till it’s screamed a third time *side eye*) and asking over the microphone (like seriously Susan?) what the matter is, don’t know which is worse! Honestly…

So had some ‘lady concerns” and couldn’t quite wait for the long appointment from my GP. To me, this was an E M E R G E N C Y! I take my health very seriously, maybe a bit too serious. But hey, better safe than sorry right?

So on this fine rainy day, Ms sunshine called me forward and asked (more like screamed over the microphone with a million people present) what was wrong today. Made it seem like I always popped in every day *rolls eyes*. Was so embarrassed, even tried to whisper to her haha. That didn’t work! She wasn’t having it, and I ended up writing it down for her. Seconds later, she whispered back (thanks Susan lol) and was directed to the waiting area.

Some minutes after I walked in to see the doctor. Let’s just say we laughed all through the consultation. It wasn’t anything major apparently, nothing rest couldn’t solve… Thanks to google for scaring the life out of me! 

Note to self- Unless it’s a real emergency, kindly stick to your doctor’s appointment…

 

When Friends become Strangers…

Guess I’ll use the word “friends” loosely… tbh not sure we were ever really friends to begin with… Well, I was a friend to them in the best way I could… dare I say, even took them as family… brought them close to mine… it felt a natural progression cos in my mind there was a bond…

They always seemed to play the victim… how life had done them bad or things weren’t going as great as they should… or maybe I was just drawn to people who seemed to have “problems”… The “savior” mentally, that in some way I could help them… fix them and make them better just by being a good friend…

The nights they called even though tired, I always had a word of encouragement… the early mornings they didn’t let me have a good lie in cos their tears I couldn’t bear… yes I didn’t think twice to be a safe place… to be vulnerable… to think the best of these people… how “naive” maybe?

They only needed me out of envy… they needed to get close to see the source of my strength… to figure out why life seemed good to me and not them… and when this same life remembered them guess what? They were nowhere to be found…

They forgot… It was their time in the spotlight. Life had finally “smiled” on them. But I forgive them, for who knows somebody somewhere might think the same of me! 

Traveling Solo…

It’s pretty much peak of summer and sure half the planet have signed off work with no memory of school runs lol.

Vacation time as a kid was awesome cos the folks paid… bills and everything in between haha. But my best holidays so far have been those I went by myself. Yep, Me myself and I… lol.

Growing up we traveled as a pack or just my dad going away for work. Not that I didn’t like traveling with my family…. far from it. I just hated the fact that we had to follow so many rules arghhhh…(yeah I’m a born rebel, well not anymore lol… Now I just nod and “let it go let it goooo” lol)

And how about traveling with friends? O M G! The worst!!!! Haha… Having them around is always fun, but why we have to be up by 5 am (I honestly don’t know why it had to be this early lol) then breakfast for 7 am, then walk around the city and tourist spots for hours when all I wanted to do was sleep… Nah, I knew I had to break free hahaha…

Thus, the new era… “Do it solo, make your own rules” haha… It was bliss. I mean I could wake up whenever and go anywhere. I saved a lot of money too… Good times. Yes, for a couple of months till one fateful day waiting to board I realized I had no one to relive the fantastic weekend I just had… Sigh

So here I am waiting for a text back to confirm who’s available this weekend for a quick trip… *rolls eyes* 

Jungle Book…

Not the movie lol… but the crazy impressions some folks get when you tell them you’re off on holiday to a beautiful African country… 

I have my leopard shoes on at the moment *sassyyyyy* (had to take them off cos errr…let’s just say I “forgot” to 💅 lol) 

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I’m strangely drawn to animal prints, I wonder why… Someone say ‘Hakuna Matata’ hahaha.

This reminded me of an ex-colleague who once asked me to please take pictures of elephants and lions on one of my trips *like seriously???* I wasn’t going to a safari btw. I didn’t know whether to laugh or keep walking… Could it be she just binged on discovery channel or ” the lion king” all weekend and somehow imagined Simba, Mogli, and Mufasa were just roaming around?

I guess at one time or the other we’ve all been guilty of having ‘wrong’ impressions of other countries… Hands up here lol.  The media doesn’t help either, as most times they seem to focus on the negative… “How much that continent needs water”- forgetting a continent is made up of different countries and some of those countries are actually doing very well economically… But the focus most times is on the minority… Gun crime? Ravaging wars and attacks? Where do I even begin? Sigh…

That’s where the advantage of travel comes in… E X P O S U R E!! You get to see and experience people, places first-hand. So much knowledge is gleaned just from interacting with other cultures. O M G! I can’t say it enough! Don’t keep to your small circle, you’ll think that’s all there is to life/people. The world is your oyster (card lol), top it up and explore! Or just start with visiting another state/city you’ve never been lol… baby steps.

Travel… pile up your memories and once you start, believe me, you’d never be the same… and who knows, one might just realize Africa is a continent and not a country…